“My expectations were reduced to zero when I was 21. Everything since then has been a bonus.” – Stephen Hawking
[The Science of Second-Guessing (New York Times Magazine Interview, December 12, 2004)]

Same thing here, to me. I stop expecting since years ago, and it feels easier whatever it takes in my life after that. It’s like I’m facing lots of bonuses since then. I’m happier.

But, one thing. I can’t manage people expectations to me. I can tell them not to, but I can’t control their heart.

Too bad, I am still only an ordinary human. I can’t always fullfil anyone expectations to me. Few times I missed. And it felt so bad. I hate that feeling.

Do it in the way I do.. Let me be your bonus.


Welcome Back!

Two things that came back to me today, after a while. Things that used to be a part of me most of the time, years ago.

1) Bangs!


Been years! And I have it back now! A bit messy, because I kinda lost my skill on cutting it. But that’s alright, I’ll handle it soon, I know. I’m still happy to have it back anyway. Yay!

2) My “Sisters Out” Moment


Yes! Me and my beloved sister. It’s been so long since the last time we had our whole day of togetherness moment. Since we live in different cities, since we’re busy with our job, since she got married to my lucky brother in law. It’s our first time again to have a full day out together, just the two of us! In the car, at the mall, talking, singing, shopping, laughing, everything!♡

You know what? It’s not always bad to have something back when it comes to a good memory. Like bangs and sisters’ quality time to me! Today I brought back my past into present, and grateful for that!

Thank God, I’m happy today! :)

When I’m not Walking, nor Talking. (Don’t Leave Me)


I used to “dance” with my pencil, pen or anything even my lipstick on any media, when I feel boring or have nothing to do and no one to talk (beside writing and daydreaming). Well, still, but nowadays I do it more on my phone. At least my lipsticks are safe now.

I’m not an artist. I can’t draw well. I’m just a communication person who loves drawing so much. Much more than talking, sometimes.

Don’t leave me alone. I can’t guarantee there’s still any space left on the wall when you come back.