Novotel Bandung, May 9th, 2015. I’m officially married to a man I love, my husband, Dimas Hendako Putra.
That day was one of the happiest day in my life. Sometimes I still can’t believe it’s true. I’m a wife now.
That day, was the day that my dream wedding become a reality. Gazillion thanks to my parents, sister, vendors and family for making it happened. ❤
Dear husband, said yes to be married to you was the craziest decision I’ve ever made. You know I’m not that easy to say yes. To a marriage thing especially. But, you know what? This is also the best decision I’ve ever made. I chose the right person and the right time to be happy together for the rest of my life.
It’s 03.00 a.m. here. I just awaken by a bad dream after three hours of sleep. The dream was so bad, I even too scared to think about it again.
Oh Lord, it was just a dream, wasn’t it???
Dear a day husband to be, I trust you.. I know you will make the best choice in every single thing you take, for our future children sake..
I trust you, love…
I’m sorry for always being scared of this marriage thing.. I’m sorry for always make you have to convince me with all of these things.. I’m so sorry…
Dear future children, you will read this post anytime in the future, I know.. Because mama ask your papa to leave it to you anytime I passed away after I have you, and if you are big enough to read and understand.
Baby, I love you since you have not born or even since you are haven’t here in my tummy. I love you since you are still here in my imagination. I love you since you are only a dream to me and your father. A dream that we really wish to be true.
I hope when you read it someday, you’ll read it with a smile because you love us too.. :’)
No secret to be kept here baby.. Soon or later, mama will write more for you..
I love you dear future husband and children of mine.. ❤
It is so quite right now, in my house. I can hear birds chirping all around (literally). Because my room located at the second floor, so basically I live close with the birds here.
It’s been days, I’m just staying around at my room, doing nothing but eat, sleep, and movies. Yes, since a week to the wedding day I cannot go anywhere. My family make me trapped here in this house like a prisoner. Well, in our country we call it “pingit”. It’s the days like this, when the wedding is close enough, the bride have no permission to go outside the house. For a safety and healthy reasons.
Stay in the house for so long makes me thinking too much. And it’s more tiring to me, than going outside and meet people out there. Oh, I miss my fiancé, my three days husband to be!
Baby, I’m affraid.. of lotta things.
My head is full, as always. Yes, it’s still.
We made it for almost ten months so far, with no break up, just some little and big fights.
It changed me quite much, our fights. I don’t like it, I want it no more in the future. We could talk, not fight. We could whisper, not shout.
We’ve made the promise. I know we could fullfil it.
Baby, this is weird.. my feeling.
I’m too affraid to expect, so I wish nothing but well.
I’m happy it’s all going really well so far, our wedding preparation. But baby, we will never know.
I’m sorry, for always be ready for the worst.
But baby, when it happened to be more than well, I’ll be the happiest of all.
Baby, don’t change.. I like it when you are so soft.
The way you talk, the way you touch, the way you see me, the way you make me feel, just like how I know you since eight years ago.
I know you’ll be a great husband of me.
I know you’ll be a great father of our children.
I know you will…
As long as I can remember, It was May 2011 my graduation day four years ago.
Yes, I went to my graduation day event with my fiancé/husband to be now, which was my brother back then.
At that moment, all I can remember is I don’t wanna go to my graduation day event with anyone like a boyfriend or someone that close to me with a purpose. For one reason; I don’t wanna ruin my graduation memory in the future.
If I go with my boyfriend or that other kind, and (at that time) the possibility of broken up is so big to me, and so when it happened, the memory of my graduation day will be not that good anymore. I don’t like it that way, and thank God it didn’t happen!
That’s why I chose him. My former brother. I never thought that I will ended up with him of course, at that moment I just thought that I could never broke up with my brother. So, my graduation memory will be save! Well, it is! ;)
Funny fact? That day was the first and last time he gave me flowers. No more flowers anymore, well at least until today. Hahahaha
He’s not romantic. He’s just a man who always tries to fullfil everything I want and need. And that’s more than enough. :)
I’m getting married, to the man in the photo. In three weeks. I’ll be a wife. His wife. :)
I never knew that someone’s life could change in a blink of an eye, especially mine. Until Lord changed my feeling for him like in a minute, and so everything in my life also changing in a row. I never knew, in less than a year, my brother last year could be my husband to be today. Now I know, I never knew anything before.
I never love him, even for a little, in our first seven years knowing each other (eight years ago). But he loves me since the first month we met, and never stop.
He loves me eight years already. No one ever waiting for me for seven years before. No one deserve my love more than my love for him right now.
If it was a race, he’s the winner. Maybe he’s not the fastest, but he’s the only one who finished the race.
A year ago, I thought next year (this year) my life would be pretty much the same. Driving alone, going to a coffee shop by myself, go to the cinema for one ticket, and still have no idea about who my next boyfriend is.
Boyfriend not husband, because I thought that I’ll marry a stranger, so “we” have to have few years to getting know each other well, at least.
And, last year, I still think about getting married when I’m 30. Who knows that the only person who could changed it all is the man who never could make me love him back for seven years?? Maybe if Albert Einstein still alive, he’ll knows.
He loves me. He tries everything to make me happy. He is a good fiancé now, and I know he will be a great husband of me then, and the greatest father of our future children.. Aamiin..
Please read it to my babies one day, when their Mama not anymore with them in this world.
My blog is a legacy. As I write everything based on my true story, I hope they will understand how to love their complicated Mama (in their memories), and their loving Papa especially.
No matter what, we love you, kiddos!!!! ❤