So many people think that my life is always sweet and smooth all the time. Well, not so wrong, but not so true too. I live a normal life. There are ups and downs here and there. But, I try not to expose the “bad time” and grateful for the good ones. That’s why it seems smooth to some people, I guess.
My life has changed, 180° since my baby was born.
Day and night feels not much different now.
No more night to morning sleep.
No more long bath time.
No more driving.
No more me time.
No more (a[lone)ly] day.
I used to be a “solo” person for years before I got married to my husband. I did almost everything by myself. Driving, shopping, anything. And I enjoyed it, so much.
This motherhood flipped it all out. My life, my daily routine, my personality even. To a better way. But I should say also a harder way. Yes, it is.
This “double” thing is hard when it comes to a personal feeling. No matter what, I still feel tired, or boring and sad, sometime. Just like any other normal human being. Especially when I feel unbalanced.
A mother do overthinking, all the time. And that’s why I feel need to be loved more than ever before. To keep me balance. To keep me sane. To keep the stress away. Because that stress monster is somehow live so near to my head nowadays.
I don’t talk about my son here. And it’s not about motherhood (only) too. It’s about me as a personal, as a wife and a mama, all in one. It’s about process. A beautiful complicated process.
Well, I’d be a pineapple. No matter how hard life is, it’s more the sweet than the sour after all. Allah is with me. That’s all I need as the strongest power source. Insha Allah. 💛
And, yes, my life is sweet. As sweet as it looks.