Dear mom & dad,
Do you know?
No matter how happy I am now, I’m happiest when I am your little girl.
Honestly, I hate being grown up.
If I could have a magic wish, I wish I could never grow up, and so you sould never grow old, then we could be together forever.
I just don’t wanna lose you, mom dad.
I cannot imagine how my life would be without you both.
Well, it would be empty, I know.
Mom, dad, I’m scared.
Your daughter might seems like a grown up woman now. But still, I’m your little girl..
I love you, dear family.
If someday someone should leave first, let me be the very first.
Bandung, Desember 6th 2014
I don’t know how to describe my feeling for you.
I love you, in the way that I never loved anyone before.
Is it really love?
I hope I’m right. All I know is, I have this really huge affection on you, abundantly.
Do you know? I don’t know how could this happened, but I just can’t control.
I’m mad more than like to anyone when I’m mad at you. I can feel it comes from the very deep down of my heart. Every feeling is just become overrated.
It hurts me when I see you down,
I feel undescribably blue when you sick,
I get jealous when you talk to any girl but me,
I feel so upset when I know you go with any girl around.
I’m sorry. I’m going crazy. You’re driving me insane.
Baby, it is new to me. You’ve ruined a whole system of my heart. I might be an error now. But I’d like to adapt.
Take my hand,
Bare with me,
Lead the way,
I’ll walk with you..
Because I love you.
Honestly, since we’re no longer together, I’m always scared to write on my blog again. Even here, in my new one that you don’t know. Because I know, it gonna be so easy for you to find this. And just like the old way, you’ve always been updating yourself about me from my blogs. Well, maybe not anymore. But, I don’t know why I’m still scared.
PS: If you read this, I want you to know that I really hope we will never ever meet again. Not because I hate you, it just because I don’t know what to say to you. And, thank you for gave me so much things to learn when we were together. I’ve learnt a lot from you. I mean it.
Your Peculiar Ex