Bride To Be; Three Days To Wedding Day

It is so quite right now, in my house. I can hear birds chirping all around (literally). Because my room located at the second floor, so basically I live close with the birds here.

It’s been days, I’m just staying around at my room, doing nothing but eat, sleep, and movies. Yes, since a week to the wedding day I cannot go anywhere. My family make me trapped here in this house like a prisoner. Well, in our country we call it “pingit”. It’s the days like this, when the wedding is close enough, the bride have no permission to go outside the house. For a safety and healthy reasons.

Stay in the house for so long makes me thinking too much. And it’s more tiring to me, than going outside and meet people out there. Oh, I miss my fiancé, my three days husband to be!


I miss the way he looks at me..


I miss the way he makes me laugh..


I miss the way he thinks I’m cute.. :p

I miss everything about him…


I Miss You Even More


I’m getting married, to the man in the photo. In three weeks. I’ll be a wife. His wife. :)

I never knew that someone’s life could change in a blink of an eye, especially mine. Until Lord changed my feeling for him like in a minute, and so everything in my life also changing in a row. I never knew, in less than a year, my brother last year could be my husband to be today.
Now I know, I never knew anything before.

I never love him, even for a little, in our first seven years knowing each other (eight years ago). But he loves me since the first month we met, and never stop.
He loves me eight years already. No one ever waiting for me for seven years before. No one deserve my love more than my love for him right now.
If it was a race, he’s the winner. Maybe he’s not the fastest, but he’s the only one who finished the race.

A year ago, I thought next year (this year) my life would be pretty much the same. Driving alone, going to a coffee shop by myself, go to the cinema for one ticket, and still have no idea about who my next boyfriend is.
Boyfriend not husband, because I thought that I’ll marry a stranger, so “we” have to have few years to getting know each other well, at least.
And, last year, I still think about getting married when I’m 30. Who knows that the only person who could changed it all is the man who never could make me love him back for seven years?? Maybe if Albert Einstein still alive, he’ll knows.

He loves me. He tries everything to make me happy. He is a good fiancé now, and I know he will be a great husband of me then, and the greatest father of our future children.. Aamiin..

Please read it to my babies one day, when their Mama not anymore with them in this world.
My blog is a legacy. As I write everything based on my true story, I hope they will understand how to love their complicated Mama (in their memories), and their loving Papa especially.
No matter what, we love you, kiddos!!!! ❤

Dear Husband To Be; I Hope You Will Always Remember

Our conversation last night, and so many other nights before.. about how greatful we are to have each other, and about how hard we will try to built our “home”, our little family for our future children.

It’s four weeks to go, dear.. Time flies, I know. I hope everything will be going well until the wedding day and after. Aamiin..


Baby, thank you for last night, thank you for every date that you ever gave to me since eight years ago. The dinners, the karaokes, the movies, everything! :)
Hopefully there still will be another regular fun date after wedding, and after we have a child or even children! Aamiin..

I hope we will always remember to keep our love grows evertime, everyday, until the death do us part! Aamiin.. Aamiin.. Aamiin…

I love you, four weeks husband to be!

Dear Husband To Be; What Will Be Will Be


Eight months of relationship and still counting..

Dear love,
I know it’s getting harder and harder. The way, and the tests that we should pass.
I know you’re tired sometimes, or even most of the time. So do I, dear. But remember, we’re on a test.
Do you know, honey? Everyday I wake up with a hope, that today we’re stronger than yesterday..
I don’t wanna lose the fight with the devils.
Few times I became weak, but trust me I still don’t wanna lose.

But love,
I know we haven’t there yet. We will never know what will happen until we’re arrived.
You are my future husband now. But happen to be my husband only if God will it to. We still don’t know.
Only Heaven knows..

Dear husband to be,
As we leave it to Allah, may He shows us the way to a happiness, whatever it takes.. Aamiin…

Dear Husband To Be; Little Things You Do

Do you know what makes/keeps me falling in love with you?
The little things you did, and keep on doing.

The moment you stroked my hair without me asking first,
The moment you kept holding my hand in front of people,
The moment you came up with my favorite food/beverage out of nowhere,
The moment you made some time just to hold me and took a nap together with me in your arms,
The moment you acted so silly just to make me laugh,
And other little things that you might have no idea that you’re doing it right. Right through my heart. :)


Dear husband to be,
With you I pleased easily. You and your little surprises, has a big impact to me.
Thank you ❤

The Lucky Seven, A Bride To Be

Hello again!

First of all, I have to admit that this is totally an unusual post from me. You will see a 180° different me, compared to the former posts. The title? Yes, It’s about me. I’m a bride to be!


2015, I will get married to the sleeping man in the picture. He’s my boyfriend, soon to be fiancé, and my next year husband to be. ♡

Remember the song “Lucky” by Jason Mraz? “Lucky I’m in love with my bestfriend”? Ya, I never thought it will be one of my wedding songs. I used to think that it’s too impossible to be happened to me. Turns out, my boyfriend? He used to be my seven years bestfriend.

2007, seven years ago, was the first time we met. He was my client when I was working as Public Relations at a graphic lounge. He came for a surprise birthday party he made for his girlfriend (at that moment). After that, we became friends. He broke up with his “birthday girl” and we spent more time to get along together. We chated a lot via Yahoo Messenger, went for movies, and many places around town. He’s a very nice guy. I enjoyed the time we spent together. For months, until the day he said he loves me.

He said “I love you”. At that time, that words were like a spell to me. The thing that I didn’t want to hear from anyone. I believe him, I just didn’t believe in love back then. So, I left. I decided to went away from him.

January 7th 2009, it was my birthday, and the first time again I replied his (offline) message on YM after two years I “disappeared”. That two years, he kept texting me via YM sometimes, even though I never reply. I left him questioning why. I deleted his every numbers, social media and messenger accounts. I left him blinded. But he never forget to send me his best prayer on my every birthday, no matter what. He never stop trying.

That year, we met again. He took the chance for us to get close (again), even though only as friends. Years gone by, we became bestfriends, then brother and sister. We had our own relationships with another person, but we never stop seeing each other, as a family.

Seven years, he never leave me. He is always there for me, anytime, everytime I need him, as everything I want him to be. He knows everything about me. My bads, my wounds, my weaknesses, but it never change the way he looks at me. He never stop loving me, caring me, wholeheartedly. And after seven years, finally I love him back. Something I never thought could be happened, just happened to me. Like a miracle. God put that love to me, for him. For his gentle heart. July 4th 2014, I’m falling in love with him. Finally.


I love him. It’s getting deeper and deeper everyday. Alhamdulillah.. He loves me, he’s the best at taking care of me, he makes me smile, he makes me laugh, he tries everything to make me happy, he has a warm hug, a very comfortable shoulder to lean on, he’s a hardworker, he has everything I need from a man to live together forever. What else I need?


I never had in mind that I will get married this soon. Even the day before I love him, I still thought that I will get married at least in two or three years ahead. Not this soon. But, Lord has a plan. He surprised me! No one could change my faith, my heart, my will, but Allah. Everything changed in a beat! Boom! “You love him! And you are ready to be a wife! His wife!” Like that? I guess so! Hahaha

Thank you Lord. Thank you Dimas, my beloved husband to be. Thank you for the seven years of trying, struggling, loving and caring. I love you, and I’m so ready to be your wife. May Allah be with us forever. Aamiin..

Yes, I’m the lucky seven and I am a bride to be! :)