(Almost) nobody knows it. I was a broken pieces living a life like everything was okay, for so many years. But turns out, it is okay, now.
My son is the one who made me whole again..
But some people knew..
I let them knew it, for some reason I thought was right.
Well, it doesn’t matter anymore, right?
I had a pretty though life since I was a teenager. Not in the family circle, but out of that. It changed me, it shaped me, it broke me, a lot. But then, it made me who I am today.
I was saved by my husband, and glued by my son.
That’s why, I need not much friends in my life. Only a few that I let left, the friendship that built by years of trust. And some more that live far away but so close in my heart and prayer.
I am not a perfect whole, and will never again. But I am happy now, and will be happier everyday in the future (I’m pretty sure) in shaa Allah. Aamiin. Because that’s what matter the most. A happy mama for a happy family! Well, that’s what my husband said to me. “I have to make you happy, so the whole family will be happy too. A happy wife makes a happy family!”, he said. ❤
Dear hubby Dimas Hendako Putra,
Yes, I write it for you. Even though I know you are not gonna know/read it at this short time or even forever, I still wanna write it down for you.
Hubby, thank you!
I know I’ve been thanking you so much times since we’re together, but still I wanna thank you more!
Thank you for all these time you gave me and our son. It means the world to us! I mean it.
Thank you for all the energy, effort and everything you did to make us happy.
Thank you for being an understanding, heartwarming kind of husband.
Thank you for all surprises! Hugs! Kisses!
I know you are so tired lately, but still you try to give your best anytime you are around me and Dirran.
I know I kind of “busy” and ignoring you since Dirran born, but still you say you love me and miss me every single day and night.
Hubby, you fill me.
The blank page in my mind, the empty space in my heart, you fill it with your love.
Thank you. ❤
Hi, love! You are sleeping in your crib now, when I’m writing this post. Someday when you read it, just imagine that I’m talking beside you, okay?
Son, eight days to go and you will be four months old. You know what? To me, it still feels like just yesterday you were born. Time flies too fast as usual.
Baby son, three months already and still I did so much mistakes to you, I’m sorry. This newbie mom will try her best to treat you right, I promise. Because son, your presence in this world is the best thing that ever happened in my life. You can never imagine what you did to me these short three months. So many life changing experiences (good ones). Thank you, my dear. You are such a miracle that comes to life. ❤
My Dirran, no matter what happens in the future, please remember that mama loves you so much. Forgive your mom for always worries all the time. It’s getting bigger and bigger everyday, I know. But you must know, it’s because I love you. You are my first priority now, and forever. My number one. I will do anything to protect you. I would die for you, if I have to. As long as you are safe, healthy, happy, I would do anything for you.
Time flies. My and his January passed so fast. I don’t know if we were too busy, or too happy, or both, but January always been great month for us, as usual.
My birthday, his birthday, and my pregnancy especially, made our January this year more special than ever. To me, it’s my first birthday as a wife, and a mom to be for sure. Masha Allah, it’s so beautiful Your gift to me! ❤
Today on the first day of February, we went to see the doctor again and “met” our baby in my tummy. “A male, Insha Allah”, the doctor said. And the most important thing is, he is healthy. Alhamdulillah…
Novotel Bandung, May 9th, 2015. I’m officially married to a man I love, my husband, Dimas Hendako Putra.
That day was one of the happiest day in my life. Sometimes I still can’t believe it’s true. I’m a wife now.
That day, was the day that my dream wedding become a reality. Gazillion thanks to my parents, sister, vendors and family for making it happened. ❤
Dear husband, said yes to be married to you was the craziest decision I’ve ever made. You know I’m not that easy to say yes. To a marriage thing especially. But, you know what? This is also the best decision I’ve ever made. I chose the right person and the right time to be happy together for the rest of my life.