Bride To Be; 50 Days To Wedding Day


It’s getting closer.. The wedding, everything..

Texts and calls from our vendors feels like a wake up alarm to me. They reminded me of how close I am to the wedding day now. 50 days, yes, THAT CLOSE!

Some friends asked me how do I feel about it. To be honest? I DON’T KNOW!
I don’t know what it is. I have no idea how to describe my feeling and what it called. I never had this kind of feeling in my life before. This is new to me. I don’t know whether I’m happy or sad, excited or scared, ready or not. Really!
This is just so weird, and I don’t know what to say anymore.
All I know is, ready or not, my life is gonna change in the next 50 days..

Dear Allah, may this is one of your best plan for me and my husband to be in our lives now and then.. Lead us the way.. Your best way… Aamiin..

Dear readers, this time I really wish you could send a good prayer for me and my husband to be wedding and marriage.. Wish me luck! :)


Dear Husband To Be; Little Things You Do

Do you know what makes/keeps me falling in love with you?
The little things you did, and keep on doing.

The moment you stroked my hair without me asking first,
The moment you kept holding my hand in front of people,
The moment you came up with my favorite food/beverage out of nowhere,
The moment you made some time just to hold me and took a nap together with me in your arms,
The moment you acted so silly just to make me laugh,
And other little things that you might have no idea that you’re doing it right. Right through my heart. :)


Dear husband to be,
With you I pleased easily. You and your little surprises, has a big impact to me.
Thank you ❤

Bride To Be; Two Months To Wedding Day

March 9th 2015, exact two months before my wedding day on May 9th 2015.

Some people said “The closer the wedding, the harder the situation you have to get through. Problems come and go, either from your wedding preparation or even between you and your husband/wife to be.”
Now I know…

My problem now, is the invisible thing that matter the most. The thing that I have to work hard on to control. My feeling.
It’s become pretty wild lately. It become so unpredictable. I can cry over and over on the same day, over the little things I feel unhappy with. Now I’m more sensitive than whenever before in my life. I’ve tried to stop it, but believe me it is not that easy.

I have ever been in the other side position of course, which is being the outsider of some people’s wedding preparation. Being the ears to listen.
From my point of view that time, these “little heart problem” was just a drama. It wasn’t supposed to be a thing that can ruin your welcoming wedding mood. But now? I totally understand.

I don’t mean to make you (haven’t married reader) scared of wedding. I write it here just to share what I feel as a two months bride to be. Different person different problem of course. Or even maybe some people doesn’t have any pre-wedding problem at all? Hopefully you will be one of them when you are about to get married someday! Aamiin

Well, it’s just a test to be passed. I know I will..
Happy Monday! :)


The Lucky Seven, A Bride To Be

Hello again!

First of all, I have to admit that this is totally an unusual post from me. You will see a 180° different me, compared to the former posts. The title? Yes, It’s about me. I’m a bride to be!


2015, I will get married to the sleeping man in the picture. He’s my boyfriend, soon to be fiancé, and my next year husband to be. ♡

Remember the song “Lucky” by Jason Mraz? “Lucky I’m in love with my bestfriend”? Ya, I never thought it will be one of my wedding songs. I used to think that it’s too impossible to be happened to me. Turns out, my boyfriend? He used to be my seven years bestfriend.

2007, seven years ago, was the first time we met. He was my client when I was working as Public Relations at a graphic lounge. He came for a surprise birthday party he made for his girlfriend (at that moment). After that, we became friends. He broke up with his “birthday girl” and we spent more time to get along together. We chated a lot via Yahoo Messenger, went for movies, and many places around town. He’s a very nice guy. I enjoyed the time we spent together. For months, until the day he said he loves me.

He said “I love you”. At that time, that words were like a spell to me. The thing that I didn’t want to hear from anyone. I believe him, I just didn’t believe in love back then. So, I left. I decided to went away from him.

January 7th 2009, it was my birthday, and the first time again I replied his (offline) message on YM after two years I “disappeared”. That two years, he kept texting me via YM sometimes, even though I never reply. I left him questioning why. I deleted his every numbers, social media and messenger accounts. I left him blinded. But he never forget to send me his best prayer on my every birthday, no matter what. He never stop trying.

That year, we met again. He took the chance for us to get close (again), even though only as friends. Years gone by, we became bestfriends, then brother and sister. We had our own relationships with another person, but we never stop seeing each other, as a family.

Seven years, he never leave me. He is always there for me, anytime, everytime I need him, as everything I want him to be. He knows everything about me. My bads, my wounds, my weaknesses, but it never change the way he looks at me. He never stop loving me, caring me, wholeheartedly. And after seven years, finally I love him back. Something I never thought could be happened, just happened to me. Like a miracle. God put that love to me, for him. For his gentle heart. July 4th 2014, I’m falling in love with him. Finally.


I love him. It’s getting deeper and deeper everyday. Alhamdulillah.. He loves me, he’s the best at taking care of me, he makes me smile, he makes me laugh, he tries everything to make me happy, he has a warm hug, a very comfortable shoulder to lean on, he’s a hardworker, he has everything I need from a man to live together forever. What else I need?


I never had in mind that I will get married this soon. Even the day before I love him, I still thought that I will get married at least in two or three years ahead. Not this soon. But, Lord has a plan. He surprised me! No one could change my faith, my heart, my will, but Allah. Everything changed in a beat! Boom! “You love him! And you are ready to be a wife! His wife!” Like that? I guess so! Hahaha

Thank you Lord. Thank you Dimas, my beloved husband to be. Thank you for the seven years of trying, struggling, loving and caring. I love you, and I’m so ready to be your wife. May Allah be with us forever. Aamiin..

Yes, I’m the lucky seven and I am a bride to be! :)