Me Time

12:32 a.m. in my bedroom now. Dark and quite as usual. Having a snack only for myself, since my babyloves (husband and son) are sleeping already few hours ago.

I consider it as my Me Time. I didn’t take my dinner last night, but snacking like a Dino this time. I don’t care! I’m skinny anyway!

But, I care! Not about being fat! But about being sleepless and not being an energetic Mama for my son tomorrow!

I cannot sleep, and I’m overthinking about it, and it makes me cannot sleep more! I should stop. No, I should sleep!

Yes, my head is full. Too full, lately. Too much things to think about. Overthinking! I need to stop.

Oh, Allah! Forgive me..

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I have to sleep.

Dear head, be kind!

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Happy 2 Years Old, Son!

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May 15th, 2018.

My bundle of joy is officially a toddler now!
You are two years old now, son! How fast!!

You know what, son?
Having you, time flies faster than usual. Mama still remember anything the day you were born. It feels like yesterday. But look at you now! This big, this tall, this smart! Masha Allah.. Alhamdulillah

Dear Dirran,
Thank you for being you today, my son! Mama so very extremely proud of you!
You are the best gift from Allah. Stay happy, stay healthy, always be kind and loving just like how you already are now, son. Hopefully mama and papa still have so much time to see you grow up and shine britghter everyday! Aamiin

Mama and papa love you so much! ❤

Three Years of Happiness

May 9th 2018,
It was my 3rd wedding anniversary that Wednesday. Three years of uncountable bless in my life.

Honestly, I don’t know what to write in here anymore. Since everybody knows how blessed I am with everything I have now. My husband, my son, my complete and healthy parents, my sister and brother, my superloving parents in law, my happy life! Alhamdulillah, I have everything I need in my life now, and cannot thank Allah enough for it! Alhamdulillah..

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Three years of being husband and wife..

Dear husband,
You are more than I ever expected from a husband.
The super loving, gentle, caring, supporting, helping, everything husband of mine! ❤
I am a super lucky wife to have you!

Thank you, love..
You know I have no other words. Only thank you and I love you, so much!

Thank you for the surprise, the time, the love, and..

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Our most beloved son!
I love you both, my double D!

Happy 3rd wedding anniversary once again, my love! 💋

You Don’t Know Me (At All)

(Almost) nobody knows it. I was a broken pieces living a life like everything was okay, for so many years. But turns out, it is okay, now.

My son is the one who made me whole again..

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But some people knew..
I let them knew it, for some reason I thought was right.
Well, it doesn’t matter anymore, right?

I had a pretty though life since I was a teenager. Not in the family circle, but out of that. It changed me, it shaped me, it broke me, a lot. But then, it made me who I am today.

I was saved by my husband, and glued by my son.

That’s why, I need not much friends in my life. Only a few that I let left, the friendship that built by years of trust. And some more that live far away but so close in my heart and prayer.

I am not a perfect whole, and will never again. But I am happy now, and will be happier everyday in the future (I’m pretty sure) in shaa Allah. Aamiin. Because that’s what matter the most. A happy mama for a happy family! Well, that’s what my husband said to me. “I have to make you happy, so the whole family will be happy too. A happy wife makes a happy family!”, he said. ❤

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I love you both, my superglues!

My Capricorn Baller

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Been accompanying him playing basketball since we were friends (10 years ago), until now we’re married and having a kid.

So, 10 years ago means since he was around 21 year old, because he is 31 now! My capricorn spouse was born on January 16th, 1987. Yes, we are two capricorns living under the same roof, sleeping in the same bed! And I love it! ❤

Happy 31st, love! May all your dreams and plans come true! Older, wiser, happier! Aamiin.
I can’t wait to see you with a head full of white hair someday! I know I’ll love that too!

Stay healthy, my best capricorn baller! I love you!!

30

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January 7, 2018, I turned 30.

Alhamdulillah, thank You Allah, I feel fully blessed in this age already. I got everything I need, and almost everything I want.

I have my parents, my sister and brother in law, my husband and son. I have them, so I have everything!

But, only if I could have a wish to be granted by Allah, I wish I could come back again to Baitullah! Me and my family again. With my husband and son this time! Aamiin 🙏